和我一同17歲的主

                                                                            （迷惘的17歲）

Hi Mom and Dad,

I can share with you so much more the Lord is doing in my life, I am overwhelmed. The Lord Jesus had come to me in dream how He had suffered for me of all the torment of loneliness and rejection. All the shame I had, He replaced it for me and He was beaten and tormented. He was 17 year old just as I was 17. I know the pain do not belong to me, but it was Jesus' pain. I can feel His deep love and deep mercy for me.

（追尋認同）

I also want to thank Daddy for his love for me, when you had demonstrated through giving me my favorite sports coat. I know our relationship will be better and better. And that my heart will not fear you as I was a little child because of the fear of rejection, but I know you really do love me in your ways of love. I also know that you spoil me with the enjoyment of life that mom will not because of your love for me. That's why many times; I like to hang out with you to escape from Mom's healthy diet. But besides that I just wish we will treat others like good friends who can share our hearts and not have any walls because I love you. I also know that we do have very similar struggles growing up, in fact more similarity than we know.

As you see me suffer, you also remembered your childhood. You were shocked by my reaction just as when you deal with your father when you were young. Besides that I know we all have struggles as all men do, but I want to say God's grace has saved me from darkness into His marvelous light. And I know you will be so proud of me to break through from this generational curse, because I had proven that God's power is greater than any bondage of sin. May God raise us up as trophy of grace to bless many more people. ;)

God Bless,

Alvan